That This Night is Flawless; Don't You Let it Go. I'm Wonderstruck; Dancing Around All Alone.

I suppose that since this post title mentions "dancing around all alone", I'll recollect the story of the dance pact.
Our school principal was new to our school this year, and (apparently because of our lack of attendance) he decided to ban the school dances. Since I skipped a grade, this was to be my first year in middle school, and one of the things I was looking forward to the most in middle school was - you guessed it - the dances. So, obviously, I was terribly upset that we weren't going to have any, but, through the intercourse of a school fundraiser that we host every year, we were able to gain a Valentine's dance. Maybe it was because I was on the school newspaper or because he knew that I was disappointed at first at the ban of the dances, but (if my memory serves me well) the first chat conversation I ever had with Arien was with him asking me a question about the dances. From then on, until the last dance, nearly every one of our chats would cover the topic of dances at least once.
Remember the time when I had an hour and forty minute chat conversation with him? Well, during that time, we had been talking about the dances, and how he was rather shy to ask anybody to dance. Since I knew him well enough that he was too shy to boldly ask someone to dance with him, I decided to. I said, "Well, then, if there's another dance, do you want to dance with me?". This was after our Valentine's dance, and our principal had hinted to the fact that since we had behaved so well, we might have another dance. Arien had agreed, with an exclamation point, so I knew that he really was OK with it. Happy ending, right? Unfortunately, no. After a couple weeks had passed by, something strange happened between us. Admittedly, I don't ever remember what was going on, but for some reason, we weren't exactly speaking to each other like we used to. Maybe that was the time that he started putting two and two together (meaning that he might have started figuring out that I liked him), I don't know, but whatever it was, it was quite awkward. I decided to email him and "call off" the pact, something that I really regret doing now, because I can see a bigger picture of the situation right now than I saw then. My reason for doing this, though: I was really afraid that he didn't want to dance with me and had just agreed to my offer because he wanted to be nice. Plus, if it was still awkward between us when the dance did arrive, what would we do? I was scared to find out.
To tell you of what happened at the dance, well, I felt like crying when the first partner dance came on, with the song "Two is Better Than One" by Boys Like Girls - I listen to that song all the time (it's a duet) and I've dreamed that maybe, someday, I could sing that with him, so to have to bear the fact that I couldn't dance with him for that one special song.... well, perhaps you can imagine how I felt. I ended up having to dance with another boy (a friend of mine who has a crush on me) for that song, so I plastered on a fake smile and tried not to cry. For the second and final partner dance, one of my best friends literally tried to push me over to Arien to ask him to dance, but I just couldn't. Another boy who I had briefly met before, but really didn't know him at all, asked me to dance, so I accepted, and watched Arien talk and laugh with his friends all the while. Don't worry, I did hold a pleasant conversation with the boy named Rick (name changed), but it was.... a day that I wish I really could relive and change.

"I'll spend forever wondering if you knew I was ~E~N~C~H~A~N~T~E~D~ to meet you."